Showing posts with label sad face stuff. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad face stuff. Show all posts

March 15, 2012

Sick, AGAIN! D:

Welp, I'm home sick, yet again! I'll get to the sick stuff here in a second. But first, take a gander at this wonderful care package that I just received from my good friend, Ashlee, back home in Tennessee! I'm so excited!


It included some of the cutest stuff:
♥ a get well card
♥ a super sweet note
♥ hydrocortisone cream
♥ a bottle of aloe lotion
♥ a cupcake notebook
♥ two cupcake pens
♥ a "keep calm and have a cupcake" bookmark
♥ the Kawaii Not book she's been telling me about from her work
♥ an ice cream sandwich keychain that matches hers!

Ashlee's really been keeping me positive through all of my crappy health luck here lately. What an amazing friend to have!

So here's what's been going on. I stayed home Monday because my leg hurt so bad, but my throat and head starting hurting earlier that day, too. I tried to go into work on Tuesday, and I even wore pj pants to keep my leg from getting all irritated. (I'm so classy!) But by about 10am, I was coughing like crazy, my throat was super itchy, my head was all spinny, and my ears were so clogged up that I could barely hear! I was so out of it that I couldn't focus or grasp anything my callers were saying.

And to make it worse, I was squirming in my chair every time my pj pants even grazed my leg. At the risk of sounding like a puny little baby, I also got upset and got all teary eyed and sniffly two different times when people came to my desk and asked me how I was. How embarrassing, I know. :( But I just couldn't handle it. There was so much going on, and I was so miserable! So I came on home and made an appointment with my doctor.

Just like I was afraid of, the doctor told me that I have the exact same thing I had 3 weeks ago! She said it probably never fully went away, and she thinks it was stirred back up from all the airplane travel and all of the allergens and everything blooming while I was in Nashville. And apparently my poor chest has gotten worse. She said she could barely hear any air flow in my lungs, so she gave me a huge inhaler and the same antibiotic. And if I don't get any better, she wants to do a chest x-ray. My luck, I swear!

At least there was this cute old school scale at the doctor's office for me to snap a picture of!


Once I got home and got some medicine in me, I decided to draw a few little sketchy brits.

Me on Tuesday when I tried to go to work (I didn't feel like brushing my hair, and I really did wear this to work):


And me every other day:


I've been trying my best not let all of this sicky sick and hurty hurt get to me. I'm usually so stinkin' positive, but I guess everyone gets down sometimes. I just try so hard to stay super happy through things, but it can all build up and start a big ol' snowball of stuff. I just got a little sad and felt an accumulative effect of a few not-so-positive things all at once, and I'm sure that's what brought on the tears at my desk:

• a ridiculously painful leg and not being able to walk or let anything touch it (impossible!)
• a constant super hurty sinus-pressure headache, coughing all night, a runny nose, clogged ears, etc.
• the frustration of being sick after dealing with the exact same sickness a few weeks ago (are you srs?!)
• the worry of people being upset with me for missing so much work lately
• having to leave Mom and Cupcake after getting used to the comfort of seeing them every day for a week (it makes my heart hurt a little bit, honestly)
• feeling guilty for not being able to see everyone on my trip

I mean, that's a lot to try to deal with all at once for even the most positive person! Thankfully, my leg has eased up a bit, and I'm not limping anymore and can put weight on it. So yay for that! And my doctor's note says I can go back to work tomorrow, and even though I'm not quite feeling 100%, I'm so ready to get back to normal, silly life!

Oh, and all of these little Miffy papers were covering my desk when I got back on Tuesday! And I'm pretty sure I know who it was. Ahem, Gretchen, ahem!



In the meantime, I'm trying to rest a bunch so I feel up to working tomorrow. Here's what my day looks like so far:



The past two days, I've just been taking Benadryl-induced midday naps, watching Ugly Americans on Hulu, snacking on way too much cheese, and loving on Peaches a bunch.

And of course since I've been home and bored, I had to make a bunch of these!







She's been taking care of me all day with a mighty big dose of puppy lovins!

I hope everyone else is having a normal, not-so-sick Thursday! :D

March 12, 2012

My trip back home.

Well, I'm back from Nashville! My trip was so crazy busy, and it definitely didn't feel like I was there a whole week! I did so much running around and was going non-stop, that it's all just one big blur. Thank goodness I checked into places and took instagram pictures so I can remember what all I did!

♥ SATURDAY:
I never went to bed to be completely sure I didn't oversleep and miss the flight, and Matt's new work buddy Charlie picked us up and had us at the airport around 6am. We flew all day, and I played games on the iPad the entire time. We made it to Nashville around 4pm, and my mom was so excited to see us! We took Matt to his house, and I got to hug his mom and sister. Then Mom and I went to the grocery to get food for the week. I know it's ridiculous, but I was sooo excited for Mom to take me to Wal-Mart. I haven't been to one since my last trip home, and we used to go together all the dang time. Don't judge me!

I felt like such a little kid, but I saw this Hello Kitty candy keychain in the check out line, and Mom saw me eyeing it. So she got it for me!





Then I got to go home and see my Cupcake! She's gotten so big, I almost didn't recognize her. After playing for awhile, I eventually passed out in Mom's recliner because I was so exhausted from the flight!

Here's my Cuppybutt being a big, wooly baby. I was so happy to see her.




♥ SUNDAY:
I spent the majority of the day hanging out with Mom, eating fruit roll-ups, and hugging Cupcake a bunch. We ran to Marshall's and Target, but we spent most of the day at the house talking about stuff. She's having a hard time deciding on which house to live in and which to sell. After the flood hit, we moved to Granny's and she had to rebuild everything at our house. So I helped her weigh the pros and cons of each house, and I think she's leaning toward going back to Granny's house. That was my vote, too, since it's higher up and away from water and in such a nice little community. (It's a stressful decision, because I know she loves how pretty she's made our home, but I just worry about her safety.)

Then I asked her take me to Matt's mom's so we could watch The Walking Dead with her, his sister, and his sister's best friend and boyfriend. (My mom was grossed out when I explained the show to her, so obviously she didn't stay. She had Army Wives to watch anyway!)

♥ MONDAY:
I spent the day with Matt and his mom and Nana. We all went thrifting together at a few different Goodwills and ate lunch at Baja Burrito. We had a lot of fun! I found a giant clothespin, and it immediately made me think of The Secret World of Arrietty!



Then we met up with Matt's dad and Nanny to celebrate his birthday at Uncle Bud's, and we had cake and ice cream back at his dad's house. Then we watched silly videos on youtube! Typical Dad stuff, you know. My Dad's the same way! I love it!

♥ TUESDAY:
Mom took me out to Murfreesboro to The Avenue to do a little bit of shopping. We ran into Ulta, and one of my managers from Old Navy, Tabby, had just started working there! I was so excited to see her! It was such a nice surprise.

I didn't want to go crazy in Ulta (but I very easily could have), so I just got my foundation powder, an eyebrow pencil, and a pink NYC eyeshadow. Then mom took me to a cute little store called Charming Charlie, and I loved their pink section so much!



Oh, and this was my date with mom day outfit. She isn't too crazy about tattoos, so thank goodness it was cool enough to cover up this trip! Last time, it was miserable!



My good friend, Ashlee, lives about 5 minutes from that area, so while Mom looked around another store, Ashlee swung by and picked me up to show me her apartment and get some yummy ice cream at Baskin Robbins! It was a super short visit, but she understood that I really wanted to spend time with my mom, which made me so happy. (I had a friend or two treat me really badly that I didn't have time or transportation to come to them, and it made me so sad.)


♥ WEDNESDAY:
I was supposed to see my Uncle Rick in the morning, but he wasn't feeling too well. He just started chemo, and he was having a rough day. So I ran a few errands with my mom instead, and then Dad came over and spent a few hours talking and hanging out with me and Mom. I was really happy that they got along so well, because that doesn't always work out, ifyaknowwhatimsayin. :| But no one died, and all was well!

Then my longest friend ever, Susan, (I've known her since I was 2 years old) came to pick me up to take me to McNamara's for a few beers. It was so much fun seeing her! We always have an awesome time together, so I was so excited to get to drink and be silly and just talk about girly things. Then she took me to see a few other ladies, Kira and Michelle and Sarah, and we had a super silly time just talking and catching up. It was nice to get a little bit of friendly hangout in there since I knew it was mainly going to be a family trip! And it was so sweet of them to all make time for me on my hectic schedule!

♥ THURSDAY:
I was so exhausted from staying up so late the night before, I just couldn't get going. (No it wasn't a hangover! :P I was just extra sleepy) Mom and I did some laundry and just kind of hung out and talked about house stuff and things that needed to be done. And Matt came over to take me out to eat since he and I actually had a few minutes to ourselves before I had to be at my tattoo appointment. So we had a nice little lunch date at Sakura, which was our favorite place to go before we moved.



Then Matt and his mom took me to get one of my tattoo outlines colored in. Then I passed right back out when we got home! I was so exhausted all day, so it was definitely my sleepy, lazy jet lag day since I didn't really have one when I first got to Nashville. I guess my poor body needed to catch up a bit!

♥ FRIDAY:
Dad and I went to see Grandmom for a bit, and then we headed over to Uncle Rick's since he was feeling more up to having company. My mom got this awesome machine that converts VHS tapes to DVDs. So I asked Matt to convert an old tape of me when I was a few months old because there was a lot of footage of Uncle Rick holding me as a teensy baby. I thought it might cheer him up a bit and make him feel a little better, and he really seemed to enjoy it. He's lost so much weight, but he seems to be doing okay. And the cancer has stopped growing, so that's wonderful. It was so nice to spend time with him since I haven't seen him in over a year.

After Dad dropped me off at home, Mom and I headed over to Granny's house so I could go through some of my stuff upstairs, and I realized how much there was to do there. I really wish I could've stayed to help her clean up that house and get it remodeled and nice if she does decide to live there. I kind of feel like I left her at such a crappy time, and I feel so bad that she has to do so much alone. I know she understands and that she's really great at handling things, but I still wish I were there for her.

Mom wanted to run to Rivergate to grab some food, so while we were out there, she ran me down to the two stores I worked at before I moved so I could see a few people really quick. I was only able to run in and spend like a minute or so in each, but I got to see one of my favorite managers, Tracie at Old Navy, and then John and Daniel at CD Warehouse. I gave them all hugs and ran out since I still had to pack!

I had a really good trip and got to spend lots of quality time with my mom. I just wish I could've seen more friends. A few people seemed really disappointed that I couldn't see them, and I felt so bad that I was always busy doing something. I tried my best to explain how much I had to do and how difficult it was for me to get around without having a car. I just couldn't ask my mom to drag me all over town. She took the entire week off to spend with me! Most people seemed to genuinely understand and were super sweet about my lack of time, like Ciara, Thomas, and Ariana, a few wonderful friends of mine! But I still got some pretty extreme guilt trips from a few others. :( Maybe next time I'll have more time to see everyone. But it really made me realize how hard it is to please everyone, and how it just won't work every time. I still feel bad, though, but that's just how I am. But the people that were super understanding made me feel much better and kept me from being too upset on the trip, and I love them for it!

♥ SATURDAY:
I woke up at 3am to make sure I was ready to go at 4:30. My mom cried a bunch, and I had to keep myself from doing the same. I already missed her before I walked into the airport. I got so used to seeing her every day, it just broke my heart to leave. :(

Matt and I got home around 12, and Peaches was so excited! While we were gone, she tore up a bunch of stuff, like one of my cloth boots (which I had to trash), my entire 100 count box of crayons, the back panel of Matt's GameCube, a bunny slipper, and a toy helicopter. I was upset, but so happy that that's all she did. Mom and I used to have a dog that would chew woodwork and rip up carpet! D: So I'm proud of how well she did while we were gone. And Justin, Matt's best friend that was taking care of her, didn't seem to have a problem with her at all! What a good pup.

♥ SUNDAY:
I started noticing some really sore areas on my leg Friday night, and they were looking kind of scary and making it almost unbearable to walk, so Matt took me to the E.R. to get everything checked out. I was terrified that I had a staph infection, but the doctor said it's contact dermatitis, so something that was against my skin just irritated it really badly. But it looks and feels rough!

I'll make this picture little and clickable for a large image just for those with sensitive tummies!



I was looking so forward to going back to work and seeing everyone, but the pain was just too much this morning, and anything up against my leg felt horrible. So since I kinda have to walk and wear pants to work, I ending up just having to stay home. I've had some horrible luck lately, I swear. I was so nervous about work being mad at me because I was sick that entire week, then I worked a week, then I went home for a week, and now this! It was all just one after another. Geez Louise.

But I'm happy to be back home, even though I miss everyone and everything in Nashville! Peaches has been following me around to every room. I guess she just wants to make sure that I don't disappear for a week again! Sorry for the extremely long post, but there was so much to catch up on!